Right Now

I know that Jesus loves me, chooses me, and takes delight in me, but I don't know that it is enough to cover me if others don't.

Jesus, sink your love in deep to me, so deep that all my people-pleasing is gone and all that remains is the knowledge of your love.

Only Love Remains

Only Love Remains- JJ Heller

 

Scenes of you come rushing through
You are breaking me down
So break me into pieces
That will grow in the ground

 

I know that I deserve to die
For the murder in my heart
So be gentle with me Jesus
As you tear me apart

 

Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know that I am tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

 

You burn away the ropes that bind

And hold me to the earth
The fire only leaves behind whatever is of worth

I begin to see reality
For the first time in my life
I know that I’m a shadow
But I’m dancing in your light

 

Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Show me how to walk with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

 

This is my prayer today Jesus... be gentle as you tear me apart, kill the sin in me, burn it away, until only love remains.  

He's not safe, but He's good

Jesus is SO GOOD! He has been teaching me so much these last couple weeks, revealing Himself in big and little ways, constantly beside me, reminding me that He's got this. Reminding me of His goodness, His power, and most of all, His unimaginable love for me. I love that I get to live in this! That I get to experience His constant reminders. There's a quote about Aslan, the lion from "The Chronicles of Narnia" that I love... "He's not safe, but He's good." How true this is of my God. Over and over again He is good. He's not safe, He's not about getting my way or being comfortable. But HE IS GOOD.

This semester has been so weird. I'm just seven months from graduating, I think something like 20 weeks of school left in my undergrad career. And it's in these circumstances that I find Jesus changing me, repositioning me, and being Himself... being good. Right as anxiety begins to set in, He snatches it away and replaces it with wisdom and peace. Right as pride starts to creep up, He humbles me and shows me my smallness, my brokenness. And right as despair tries to take hold in my soul, He comes riding in, saving me from my flesh and once again declaring His goodness over me. As I look ahead into this next chapter in my life, all I can say is, He is good.

“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”
― C.S. Lewis

MIA

Sorry I've been absent in the world of Wordpress lately! You see, I may have found a new love, called .... Tumblr. I know, I know... how many stinking blogs do I have, right?! But I just keep finding ones I like. Now don't get me wrong, Wordpress has been so good to me. I love the fun templates, the ease in which I can add new posts and track my site traffic. And I certainly love the official "website" feel that it gives my blog. BUT, have you ever checked out Tumblr? It's just so cool. The only thing easier about posting on Tumblr is breathing. Or sleeping. Oh gosh, is the Wordpress police gonna come arrest me? I feel like such a traitor!

But that's not the point of this post! Because I do want to apologize for being gone, and let you all know how cool Tumblr is, but at the same time, I obviously haven't shut down shop here either. Because here is where I can share more big life stuff. Here is where I get to rant and rave and have uber long posts that probably noone reads all the way through. Because the truth of the matter is that no matter how cool Tumblr is, it's just not really the place for those uber long posts. At least not for me. It's more of a "slap up a photo, throw up a quote, scrawl a quick thought or two" kinda blog.

So, now that I've got you curious, why don't you go check it out? :)

5 Things Friday- Things that are Taking Up My Time

Things that are Taking Up My Time

1. My online psych class- currently working on going through a 108 slide powerpoint to take a 10 point quiz... really?!?

2. Meeting with lots of lovely ladies- young and old!

3. My tumblr. (Well, not really, I just wanted you to click!)

4. Design. duh. It's my major.

5. Preparing for a new season of Wounded Heart

5 Things Friday- Things that I love about my room

Things that I love about my room

1. Roomie and new lion pillow pet!

2. Reading corner with comfy chair and all the books I could want

3. HUGE TV



4. Comfy cave bed



5. Animal cracker bear... always filled to overflowing


 

*sorry for the low quality pictures... taken in our room at night with the lovely mood lighting- not the greatest for picture-taking!

5 Things Friday- Things that are Overwhelming Me

Things that are Overwhelming Me

1. Meeting and connecting with all my new residents

2. All the activities, meetings, and plans that I have swirling around in my brain

3. The fact that classes start in 3 days, and I'm not even sure that I'm enrolled in the best classes for me

4. My still-full closet

5. The fact that in spite of all of this, God has me, loves me, and is taking care of every detail.